Lately I have been preoccupied with our adoption process. Nothing is happening, we are waiting on paperwork to get signed off on and I have no idea how long it will be. It has consumed my thoughts and my prayers for some time now. I know God has reasons for the delay, and I am accepting that but part of me wants things done yesterday and wants a reason for all this. So, I sat down in church the other day as I listened to the band practice and I began to pray for God to show me why this was happening. I will admit I was really whining about it all. I opened the Bible and came right to a set of verses I don’t recall reading before. A lot of times when I am wanting answers about one thing God chooses to answer me about something completely separate. I don’t really know why He chooses to do this but it happens to me a lot. So, that is what happened. I was asking for answers about the delay in our adoption and he choose to give me these verses on being voiceless.
“Energize limp hands, strengthen the rubbery knees. Tell fearful souls, ‘courage, take heart; God is here, right here, on his way to put things right’. And redress all wrongs, He’s on his way! He will save you!
Blind eyes will be opened, deaf ears unstopped. Lame men and women will leap like deer, the voiceless break into song. Springs of water will burst out in the wilderness, streams flow in the desert. Hot sands become a cool oasis, thirsty ground a splashing fountain. Even lowly jackals will have water to drink, and barren grasslands flourish richly.” Isaiah 35:3-10 (the message)
I am sure some of you are wondering why the phrase “the voiceless break into song” is significant to me. As I read it, it just jumped off the page at me. It was meant for me to read right then. You see our daughter, whom we are in the process of adopting, has never spoken. She has gone 10 years without saying one word. It is one of the things that will be a challenge for us to all work through when she comes home. We have some experience with this since our son Joshua is three and speaks about 20 words, but usually only when prompted. We know what limited speech is like, in fact he didn’t speak at all until age 2. But at least we do have some words and he uses some sign language and a lot of pointing to get his point across. Our daughter uses some signs and also a word pad to communicate, and we have bought an Ipad for both of them to make use of. We will communicate with her, but people ask me all the time, will she ever speak? I have no idea. I don’t think this verse is promising her speaking when we bring her home. I would love that, but I really don’t know if that will happen, but what I do know that this verse promises me two things. One, she will speak when God brings her to her heavenly home and I will hopefully be there ahead of her to see that day. And it also tells me that God is the God of the impossible. I hope that she might speak while here on earth. With God it is possible. HE is able to do that, whether he chooses to or not remains to be seen. I have faith that He may, if it is his will. I think this verse just assures me that he is concerned with our daughter. He sees her, and us, as we wait for this process to happen. He is preparing her for us and us for her. He knows about the details of all this and He has it under control. He has a plan. He will put things right in his time and she will come home. And all this pain and waiting will be a distant memory.
this is childbirth, and yes, it will be a distant memory someday. But, now it hurts and you want it over with. You to hold your little girl and I want to hold by granddaughter. God knows our hearts, hers included and will bring us together in his perfect time. It is our choice to be patient and learn or be miserable and miss the lessons he has for us in the wait. Love to you and her.