Right now I am trying to schedule our homestudy visits. There will be four of them so it’s a lot to get scheduled and a lot to do. However, because of schedule conflicts with our social worker and my husband’s work schedule we are most likely not going to be able to get started until a month from now, May 25th is our first one. This frustrates me, to be honest. I don’t do well with waiting. I find myself in a grumpy mood today as a result. It kind of reminds my of our two-year old throwing my own little private fit. But I know that it’s not doing me any good to be cranky over having to wait. I know from experience that God has this all planned out for the best. I just have to trust Him that the waiting is necessary.

God gave me this verse today in my devotions and I think it is really cool.

To my daughter:

” And God, whom I so love to worship and serve by spreading the good news of his Son—the Message!—knows that every time I think of you in my prayers, which is practically all the time, I ask him to clear the way for me to come and see you. The longer this waiting goes on, the deeper the ache. I so want to be there to deliver God’s gift in person and watch you grow stronger right before my eyes! But don’t think I’m not expecting to get something out of this, too! You have as much to give me as I do to you.” Romans 1:8-12 (the message)

God is with me as I wait and He is working in me to prepare me for what lies ahead. I just have to be patient, easier said than done. But someday, all this will be just a memory and we will have our daughter here at home. It will all be worth it.