This morning I got on the waiting child website for our adoption agency. I discovered that the little girl we have submitted papers to be considered as a possible family for was no longer listed. I immediately sent an email to the case worker asking why she had been taken off the list. I have no heard back yet, but I can only assume that she has been matched with another family since we have not been notified of anything. Honestly, it’s frustrating to have this happen yet again. It just makes one want to give up. But I know that God has a plan and all that stuff, but it’s still disappointing. Adoption is full of ups and downs. It really is emotionally difficult. If you haven’t been through it, it seems like a simple process, but it’s really not. I know this, all to well, but it doesn’t make these situations any easier.
After I made my discovery this morning, I decided that God and I needed to have a pow-wow. So, I took my Bible and went into my prayer tub. I have been reading in 2 Kings. I thought about looking at the Psalms just because those always bring comfort, but I felt like I should stay in 2 Kings, so I did. And in the middle of the verses I was reading I found this one, “‘Have you not heard? Long ago I ordained it. In days of old I planned it; now I have brought it to pass…” 2 Kings 19:25. I felt like God was speaking to my situation. He was saying to me that He has ordained this adoption and He is bringing it to pass in His way. I need not worry about it or how things might work out, He has a plan and this did not sneak up on Him or surprise Him. I know that no matter how this whole things turns out, He has everything under control and He will do His will in this situation. I am praying that we can find peace and direction as we wait for His will. And for now we will wait.